Post Surgery

5 days post surgery and I thought I’d be knitting a lot more.

1- you can’t knit on fentanyl. Or stay awake for long. You can order from zulily. Unfortunately.

2- you can’t knit well with an IV in you, especially if the tube goes across your body. It seemed cruel. I still tried

3- no matter how therapeutic, it’s hard to focus on knitting a row when they say cancer. And then tell you it’ll be a few weeks before you know what’s next

I have ovarian cancer and the surgeon may have gotten it all but we won’t know for some time. In the meantime I get to sit, unable to work or clean or even drive. I knit a row and think. I think too much to focus on even this sock.

What does cancer mean? It was caught early so I’m not investing in a casket any time soon. It means at worst, chemo. I’d be a horrible chemo patient. At best, a whole lot more filling out of doctors’ forms and not being able to put off said appointments. It means my body doesn’t function correctly, which I’ve known for years. It means I won’t hear- it’s just stress- when I get weird rashes or sharp pains in my stomach. It means everything changes.

And it means I’m knitting these socks for ME!

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Mommy Needs A Time Out

2019 was supposed to be the year of me. After getting my master’s degree, CPA, fostering and adopting three kids, one special needs and two with medical challenges, I was ready to focus on me. I have gained 60 lbs in two years and have had some weird ailments pop up. Hives that don’t sway. Jaw infections. Cold after cold after cold. It turns out I have masses on my ovaries and am going in this week for some major surgery. I’ll be out of work for 3-8 weeks and already stocked up on my stash. I’m thinking a sock yarn blanket!

This sucks.

I hope the doctor is better at sewing than I am!

Time

I am afraid I have been overwhelmed of late and my knitting has been neglected.  Working on two group projects with school, busy work week, and trying to write for another personal project is taking up so much time.  I still have the shawl on the needles because I ran out of yarn.  Yes, I know- I should have gotten enough when I bought it.  I think I might just pull the whole thing off anyway.  I have another project a few rows in.  I want to make another felted bag, but this one in brown.  I have so many tan and brown items of clothing and no bags to match.  I have a few shades of galway yarn that look good together.  Now, I just need time.  I think my idea in my head would make a great pattern that I can’t wait to share.  I love felting bags.  The great thing about felting is that the gauge is really unimportant.  I can even knit and read at the same time without having to focus on an intricate steps of a pattern.  Of course, now that I’m listening to books, I don’t have to do that. 

I’m trying to cover knitting topics little by little since it takes so much time to get a pattern/project done.  Please let me know if there are any topics or questions you would like me to cover.  I’ll get to more about knitting needles in the next post. 

Happy Knitting.

St. Patrick’s Day

It’s St. Patrick’s Day and I’m sitting outside of my marketing class waiting for the minutes to click by.  I should be reading and rereading the material because I’m pretty sure there will be a pop quiz.  However, I’ve done this at least five times already and my brain doesn’t want to take in anything more.  It’s St. Patrick’s Day and I should be somewhere else, drinking a pint of guiness and watching people with green headbands stumble over themselves while stammering Erin Go Bragh or Kiss me I’m Irish.  It’s St. Patrick’s Day and I should be sitting at home on the couch, working a row of the still unfinished baby blanket, thinking of new patterns to create.  It’s St. Patrick’s Day and I should be taking a nap, because I’m tired and would love a stay at home vacation laying in bed, watching movies, reading novels and petting cats.  Well- um- Happy St. Patrick’s Day anyway.

Valentine’s Day

Happy Valentine’s Day to everyone.  Valentine’s day is meant to celebrate the love.  If you didn’t receive flowers or chocolates or perfume this year, you are not alone.  When my husband and I first met, I discovered that his former girlfriend had not given him a card because it was a girl’s holiday and this upset him.  For our first Valentine’s Day together I gave him about 20 cards.  They were all less than $1, but the sentiment was there.  That day was a disaster.  I can’t think of a good V-day before or after meeting my sweet heart.  It seems we are always broke and unable to celebrate the materialistic side of the holiday.  I know it is a hallmark holiday.

Anyway, I hope I’m not bumming too many people out.  I’m in a bit of a funk lately and need to snap out of it.  I should have knit my honey a heart, but wasn’t really into it.  I am working on something now that I think will turn out fantastic with a new pattern to post, but I’d rather not jinx it too early.

I did also start posting to the stitch library.  Please visit my page https://knitwerks.com/ and click on stitch library at the top to see more.  So far I have stockinette, garter, seed, double seed, rib and double rib.  I can’t wait to add more.  I need a better way to take pictures so they show better. 

Happy Valentine’s Day to all today.  Show someone you love them anyway you can.

Home Sick

I’m home today with a bad cold. I went to the walk in clinic and I don’t have the flu. Right now, I’m on the couch with my precious cat Sofie on top of me. I’m about to lay down for another nap. I slept all day yesterday and just want to sleep all day today.
I think cats are the best medicine. At least sleepy purring cats.